Beautiful and Bitter Farewell

So...

Oh, the irony of that word! Many things have begun, sprouted from those two simple letters.

Banzai for being cryptic.

I'm not even going to try to express myself in a coherent manner right now, so I'm going to be more scatter-brained than usual. Please bear with me.

Anywho, just wanted to say that I am amazingly content now. The whole romance mess from last semester is officially over. It ended late Tuesday night. Or early Wednesday morning. Which ever you'd prefer to consider. I cannot even describe the utter happiness, peace that I feel right now. I feel as though I can prepare and go forward into my future without disillusionment or doubt.

In the past when I've cried over what life has sent my way, I would come out of it bleeding, a mess, tangled, holding my wounds, barely stumbling along. This time, I'm walking away with my shoulders straight, head high, tears brimming, and a smile on my face. A beautiful, bittersweet ending. Saying "sayonara" with a smile that teases the tears. No regrets. It ended too beautifully for me to regret even a single moment.

"What a beautiful piece of heartache this has all turned out to be.
Lord knows we've learned the hard way all about healthy apathy.
I use these words pretty loosely.
There's so much more to life than words.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear.
Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there,
Dance without me, you dance so gracefully.
I really think I'll be okay.
They've taken a toll, these latter days.

Nothing like sleeping on a bed of nails.
Nothing much here but our broken dream.
Oh, but baby, if all else fails,
Nothing is ever quite what it seems.
And I'm dying inside to leave you with more than just cliches.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear.
Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there,
Dance without me, you dance so gracefully.
I really think I'll be okay.
They've taken their toll, these latter days.
They've taken their toll, these latter days.

Tell them it's real,
Tell them it's really real.
I just don't have much left to say.
They've taken their toll, these latter days.
They've taken their toll, these latter days."
~Over the Rhine

Walk with the King and be a Blessing.